Threads of soul

“Each thread tells a story. Each knot holds a memory. Together, they weave a soul.”

1. What is Threads of Soul?

“Threads of Soul” is the name I chose because it reflects all the experiences, emotions, and transformations that make up who I am. Each thread is a piece of me — motherhood, healing, identity, and self-discovery — woven together into a single tapestry. This blog is where I untangle those threads and share them with honesty and hope.

2. Hitting 40: A Turning Point

Turning 40 was more than a milestone — it was a moment of reckoning. In my 20s, I’d laugh off my mother’s advice about health. I never imagined I’d be a mother of four by 40, trying to hold everything together while feeling like I was falling apart inside.

3. Motherhood, Guilt & Grace

I love my children deeply, but motherhood hasn’t always felt graceful. I struggled to be the “present” mother — emotionally available, conscious, calm. Most days, the guilt made me feel like I was failing. I want to write about that reality: not perfect parenting, but real parenting. Especially as a Pakistani mother raising children in a different culture.

4. A Career Lost & a Self Reclaimed

I once had a career I was proud of. Then came motherhood, and slowly, I lost the sense of who I was. That loss led to depression, mental health struggles, and eventually — a breakdown. But it was also the beginning of something new.

5. Healing & Transformation

I turned inward. I did therapy — CBT, RTT. I began a wellness journey with WildFit, lost two stones, and more importantly, regained my sense of self. I feel beautiful, vibrant, awake again. And that’s what I want to share — not just the pain, but the power of healing.

6. Why I’m Writing

I’m writing for myself first — to document this journey honestly. Then for my daughters, my son, my family, and anyone out there who sees a part of themselves in my story. If you’ve ever felt stuck, torn, or invisible — you are not alone.

Let’s begin.
Let it be.